Saturday, December 24, 2005
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
This has been an incredible week. It started when I was baptized on Sunday. I was saved almost exactly 16 years ago, and for most of my life, my faith was no more than a result of my parents. After having lived on my own for almost a year and a half now, the Lord has taken hold of my life in a way that He never has before. I feel I'm changed, I know that I am a new creation. The baptism itself was awesome, as many of my good friends out here braved the rain and watched it happen after church. It was so powerful, and I could feel the Spirit move in me in an awesome way. I feel like I've been glowing ever sense. God is so good.
The Lord has been working in an awesome way in me since my baptism. Today we had our mid-week service where I lead worship for the middle school at Church. I went in early to talk to the worship pastor Don Damborg, because he has taken an interest in my music (finally someone has). But after I saw him, I went in to talk to Nate, my NextGen pastor. Me and this girl up at church have been hanging out a lot, and we had talked about dating, but decided to take it slow and become good friends first. Sounds nice, right? Well the deal was that she was a senior in High Schooland because of that, I wanted to talk about it with pastor Nate, who is also the HS pastor, and make sure that it was alright with him, etc. The ensuing conversation changed my life. We talked at length about dating and relationships and what the purpose of them is. Nate shared with me his expirences and mistakes and presented to me what a scriptually based relationship should look like. He said that the only reason for dating someone is because I would want to marry her. The Lord pointed out to me that I am so far away from being at a point where I'm ready to get married, and that any relationship that I'm trying to get into now is driven by my flesh, no matter how wholesome our actions are. He just poured into me through Nate, and I honestly feel like I understand what is required of me, and what the correct take on dating is.
All that to say that the Lord has done some incredible things in my life recently. And he is continuing to do those things. He is so good.
We have a short week, tomorrow being a half day. We took a unit test today and yesterday, and I smoked it. Once again, God is good. I'm only 37 hours away from home. And I am more excited than I have ever been. St. Louis here I come. And a Merry Christmas, too.
"I believe in Christ as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
I was just browsing Mlb.com, and I came across former Cardinal pitcher Matt Morris in a San Francisco Giants uniform after he signed a contract to play for them next year. You might know that Matt Morris played for the Cardinals longer than any current player, before now. It was truly shocking to see Matty Mo in any uniform other than the Red and White that I grew up loving. It's offensive, almost, not nessecarily in the fact that he went to another team. It's offensive because it's such a definite point of change. This man, this staple of such a well loved St. Louis institution, is gone. He found somewhere else that he would rather be. It hurts to think that things are so fragile.
In my life also, I have come to realize that things change. As I sit in my bedroom, after a long and exhausting day of a school that seems eternal, I realize how different I am now than I was just a couple of weeks ago, not to mention several years. The Lord has been shaping me and molding me for my entire life into the person that I am right now. I might live the same way, with the same routine and the same habits for most of my life, but the Lord has the power to change it instanly so that I may be where He wants me.
One of the things that the Lord has changed is my mind. I've come to a point where I feel a huge calling on my life. And that calling is something that I need to get serious about. I decided to get baptized this coming Sunday, so that I can proclaim who I am, and distinguish my life as set apart for the Lord. Pray that my life will reflect the plan that the Lord has for me. I'm excited to see what that is / who she is.
Oh, I recorded a new song with some friends, and I'm in love with it. Check it out at myspace.com/mahndo. Nothing but Love. Outie.
"I desire what desires me"
Thursday, December 01, 2005
I've been given an awesome opportunity to play a show tomorrow, December 2nd in Capitola at the Graceland bookstore and Coffee shop. I'm stoked out of my mind. It will be awesome to share both my music and my life with whoever is going to be there, and I couldn't be more excited. Any opportunity that the Lord gives me to further His name is awesome, and this is totally an opportunity for that. Come on out if you can, it starts at 7:30.