Thursday, May 06, 2010


I've been analyzing my passions, or trying to, over the last couple of days. Its a tricky thing. Part of me is convinced of the things I'm passionate about. But another part of me looks at the evidence, or lack there of, and sees that my life over the last four years or so hasn't really reflected one that is passionate about the things i claim. i feel like I've let some things go in my life and haven't pursued certain things and people outside of myself for one reason or another. I don't like the idea of this, honestly. I want to fight to bring what I am passionate about; those things and causes and people that God has created me to love and pursue, back to the light. I want to go forward, knowing that I am created for a purpose, and to chase that purpose to hopefully further Jesus' kingdom and give life to those in need. I've been reading through isaiah and have noticed a theme. God is constantly calling his people to give up all of themselves. Jesus was really good at speaking directly at the parts of people that they were holding back. I think i might have withheld those passionate parts of me in order to have control over my future , or something. So, in an effort to rediscover what those things are, I'd like to revert to an old tactic; listing things I love. Here goes:

Soft sunlight of midday
Baby Omar
Having 12 more days until I'm off to the next thing
Having little idea what the "next thing" is
Fixed, fully functioning laptops
My Calendar for the next two months
Hazelnut Coffee
Warm nights
Flip-flop weather
Alternate guitar tunings
Making breakfast
Young Life
Suede Couches
Jackson Browne
Traveling (at least ) 30850.379 miles this summer
Camping equipment "Like FML, but for optimists"
Andrew Murray's Jesus, Himself (free download)
Hablando to myself en Espanol
Henri Nouwen
The idea of prayer
Rembrandt's Return of the Prodigal Son
The idea of cooking
Summer Camp
Dirty foreign Taxis
Baby Bella
Embracing the fact that i have no idea what I'm doing
Wiffle ball
Dirt Roads
Rejecting escapism
The adventure and mystery of Atlanta
Planning road trips
Bitter-sweet (but mostly bitter) solitude
Ogden Tabb
Romans 8:16 "The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children."
Fresh Fruit
Late night phone conversations
Following a Savior who is motivated by love

I could go on, and probably will at some point. But you get the idea. Happy thursday

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